Sometimes I feel like my priorities are all messed up.
I spend my time and energy committed to following my dreams, pursuing a career in medicine. I feel that that is where the Lord is calling me and for that I am thankful. It is comforting that my desires are aligning with His.
But, if all that I am after is a career, I have to wonder if there is significance in my existence and the Lord in my life. Am I pursuing a career or security or relationships or whatever OR am I pursuing God?
Conviction.
The pursuit of my life and the desire of my heart are to know and follow hard after God. I am pursuing Him and trusting that He will provide. He is more than enough. Once I give up my claim to me, I get everything else thrown in. But I'm not seeking blessings, I am seeking God.
"From there you will seek the Lord your God, and you will find Him if you seek Him with all your heart and with all your soul." [Deuteronomy 4:29]
"And this is eternal life, that they know you the only true God, and Jesus Christ whom you have sent." [John 17:3]
I want to seek and serve You, my God. I want to give You everything.
And all I hope to hear at the end is, "Well done, good and faithful servant!"
